Where are you?

Everything I do is wrong.
Tell me what you want me to do,
Tell me where I should go.
Just tell me exactly what you want.
I can't guess if you tell me this,
But want something else.
I just want to be here for you.

I know this isn't the right time,
But I have feelings too.
I can't take all the fingers pointing at me.
I need you to tell me to stay around.
If you still love me.

I know it's over.
We used to argue about whose love is deeper,
Now we compare the hurt.
There's no way we can pick up from where we left,
The way things are now.
But I'm not gonna give up.
I will always love you.

I broke down many times.
I'm just so lost.
The way you told me that this is your birthday gift to me,
I just wish that it's my last birthday ever.
Trust me,
I'm not taking this lightly.
I fucking care for you Nette!
There's this overwhelming urge to end my life,
But I just wanna see you.
I won't do anything until I see you.
You are my life...

I was just so close to happiness,
It was in my hands for a moment...
But I was careless,
And now it's broken forever.