Had a few problems with publishing,
Hopefully it will work okay now.
Didn't know what to say for the past few days,
But I couldn't let this blog die either.

Argh this will be my last weekend before school starts.
There's a rather thick layer of dust on my school bag,
Because I didn't touch it at all during the hols.
May till August.
That's more than 3 months' worth of dust.

I need some new t-shirts for school,
But I'm too moody to shop.
And the hair is so bad I don't even dare to go out.

I wonder what the rest of my life will be like.
Will I get to work and live as a guy?
I'll gladly ditch my jeans and sneakers,
For a smart shirt-and-tie ensemble.
If I have to wear something remotely feminine for work,
No way.
I'll rather starve to death.

I've decided to put off transition just for the moment,
Until I can keep my emotions in check.
Meanwhile I can't help,
But stare at guys with receding hairlines and thinning crowns.
And imagine myself with those problems.
This totally blows.
Hopefully I will feel better in a week's time,
And take that all important first step.

I've always been pretty sure of my gender orientation.
But I'm not too sure about my sexual orientation.

She's all that and more.

Melvin and I are going to search for toy swords.
Those plastic ninja blades we had when we were young.
Are they called katana swords?
Kinda retarded,
Because people our age are already playing with the real things.
Hell cares.
It won't hurt that much if the toys break.