I said I wouldn't write about this,
But I feel nothing matters anymore.

I've been sitting in front of the computer,
Ever since I got up,
Working hard on your essay for you.
I'm sorry,
2 hours isn't enough for me to write something decent.
But I said I'll help and I always will.

But suddenly everything just seems so clear now.
I hate writing essays,
And even doing it for you can't change that fact.
After what you've said to me last night,
After all the tears I've shed,
All these months I've silently stood by,
Waiting for you to change your mind -
I've realized that it's utterly useless.
A complete waste of time.

Crazy,
Passionate love never lasts.
I'm sure the love we once had between us,
Is still around somewhere,
But I just can't put a finger to it now.

Of course I know where it is,
It's history.
Why do I still insist on saying the same things to you,
When I don't even know what they mean anymore?
Why do I keep pretending,
When I know we are nothing more than just strangers?
Why do I say I want you back,
When deep down inside I know I can't love you anymore?

I'm smiling now.
It no longer hurts.
I've been concentrating too hard on the fact,
That she has gotten over me,
And I've forgotten to look inside my own heart.
My memory is starting to fail,
I don't remember much now.
I guess I used to love this girl very much,
But I don't know who she is anymore.

Only I can help myself.
If hearing your ringtone gives me the creeps,
Then I will change it.
No more assigned ringtone,
Because you're just a stranger to me.

I don't want to make myself miserable anymore.
I want to make someone else happy.