"Down and out."

Something shitty cropped up at work,
And I nearly got a nervous breakdown today,
Losing my temper at everyone and everything.

I sat somewhere at Taka alone,
Refusing to report for work.
Until whatever little bit of responsibility left in me,
Did its job and I went to the shop.

I'm just so disappointed in myself.
I don't know if I'm the one to blame,
Or if there's some conspiracy going on.

Whatever the case is,
I'm the designated fall guy.

Or maybe it's just totally my fault.
I shouldn't be so self-righteous.

My back hurts.
It sucks working alone.
It sucks to depend on others so that I can pee.
It sucks to depend on others so that I can eat.

Don't pass judgment on me.
Let me rant...
And it shall pass.

And my wallet shall burn.

Maybe it happened for the right reason,
Because I met 3 very kind people today.

My wonderful ex-colleague,
Who came down all the way just to talk to me,
Before I could self-combust in the shop.

A new friend who works upstairs,
Who listened to me rant and rave about this stupid job.

And Ashley,
Who ended up sending me all the way home,
Even though it's totally out of the way for her.

Maybe they all took pity on me,
Cos I looked like,
I was 5 seconds away from a mental collapse.

Thanks.

I will never work in the retail line again.