"Lost in my own space."

Can't seem to think of a topic for my thesis.
I wanted to find something that's close to my heart,
So the whole process wouldn't be that much of a chore.

Any suggestions anyone?

If nothing else comes up,
Maybe I'll just write on something regarding ftms.
Afterall,
That was supposed to be a topic close to my heart.

Actually I'm ashamed to mention that word on my blog.
I was so desperate to start on testosterone shots,
And yet I'm now wavering in my decision,
To ever start transitioning.
Call me a coward if you want to,
But I'm just too afraid to face the uncertain future.

So maybe doing the thesis will be a good chance,
For me to understand myself better.
Now to find guinea pigs.
(Aka interview subjects)

Caught Spawn on tv on Sunday.
Thought it might ignite my interest,
In my collection of old Spawn comics somewhere in my room.
However the only thing that I felt like igniting,
Were the comics after watching the movie.
Man.
It's the worst movie I've ever seen!

Hi.
I don't have the guts to call or message you,
Even though it seems as though,
I'm breathing your name every second.
I'm trying my best to let this lie;
Wait a minute,
I don't think I'm even remotely trying.