I'm trying to keep myself busy.

Went to Parkway just now,
To shorten the watch bracelet.
I'm even reading.
Yeah me reading a book!
I don't even remember,
Which was the last book I read.
But I think I've read enough when I was young,
Plus the readings I have to do during the semester.
Kinda kills off the interest in reading for leisure.

I've lots of books on my shelves that I've never touched,
So I picked one of the relatively newer ones.
Fear and Trembling by Soren Kierkegaard.
Ha,
That's actually one of my philo texts 2 semesters ago.
Okay it doesn't really sound very exciting,
But I read about one page of it for my exam,
And I told myself I'll finish it when I have the time.
Since I am free now this is the time.

I'm trying to numb myself by doing lots of push-ups,
Dips and chin-ups.
I mean trying to do chin-ups actually.
Anything to keep myself busy.

But I can never hide the sadness in my heart.