"T updates - Day 3?"

Ermm,
Actually I'm not so sure,
About sharing my transition with everyone online,
But I'll see how it goes.

Afterall, I spent many months researching,
And reading about the experiences of other ftms,
Before I decided to take the all important first step.
So if it'll be of help to others, why not?

Of course, that'll be a different story,
If things ever become nasty for me.

Let's see.

I wasn't expecting any changes from the first shot,
And as predicted,
Nothing much has happened.
I feel so 'normal',
That sometimes I have to remind myself that I'm on T,
And I should feel psyched up about it.

Then again,
I spoke too soon,
Cos pimples are starting to appear,
And my face is producing 3 times the usual amount of oil.
To start,
My face is already damn oily,
The type you can fry eggs on,
But now there's enough to deep-fry chicken wings.

Yucks.
I realized no matter how much mental preparation you have,
Things are always different,
When you start experiencing them for yourself.
I kept telling myself I'll "learn to deal",
But I wonder how I'm gonna deal,
If people ever start calling me 'pimple plantation'.

Not sure if my hair is going to start falling out also.

By the way,
For those in-the-know, and are curious,
I'm on 150mg of Cypionate every 3 weeks.

As for the parents issue,
I've already told them that I'm trans one year ago,
Of course there were a lot of unpleasant conversations,
And unhappiness going around,
But then I've always done whatever I wanted to,
Since I was young,
And I'm sure they know they can't stop me anyway.

And I think my mum said,
If I want to transition,
I can jolly well pay for it myself.

Sure.

And last week I said this to her.
"Just because I don't talk about it,
Doesn't mean the problem has gone away.
And it never will."

Alright,
I guess this is enough for today.
I think my body is trying to adjust to the T,
And I feel lethargic and tired all the time.

I know I can't maintain the status quo,
But sometimes I wonder,
If this will truly bring me the happiness that I desire.

I sure hope so.