Woke up at 10,
Which is the time my lecture starts.
Heck.
Not today.

I've driven my whole family hysterical.
And maybe I should drop the idea of transition,
Before I drive myself nuts as well.
Now my parents are so quick to turn around,
And tell me nobody's going to support me.

Money is such a big issue in transition.
My plan is to start hormone therapy asap,
Preferably within the next few months.
And I'll go for top surgery next year.
It'll probably take me quite awhile,
Before I save enough to go for the bottom surgery.

I am fine with waiting for a good dick.
But I can't wait to pass comfortably.
I can't wait to grow facial hair.
I can't wait to suntan topless.
I can't wait to say bye bye to the things I hate.

I'll wipe out my entire savings within a year just on T,
If I go for it myself.
I really wonder,
Where successful transguys get money from.
Basically if your parents say no,
You are screwed.
By the time you have a stable income,
Testosterone won't be as effective anymore.

Maybe I should really forget about this,
And live miserably ever after.