"I cannot stop fantasizing about food."

It's been quite a while since my voice change,
(Albeit a minor one)
And nobody at home has made any comment,
Which is of course,
Totally fine by me.

Unfortunately my sister decided to drop by today,
And all it took was 2 sentences,
Before she started asking why the hell I sounded like that.
To get her off my back,
I told her I had a sore throat,
And it backfired on me,
When she didn't allow me to carry my baby nephew.

Bah.

Anyway,
The changes are coming in bit by bit,
Babystep by babystep,
Which makes me very excited,
Because I know that with every minute that passes by,
My body is slowly masculinizing.

I have like 3 tiny whiskers on my chin,
And I think I've put on a little bit of muscle,
Cos I've been working out these days.
Just a leeetle bit.
And my appetite's totally gone through the roof as well.

These minor changes are not drastic enough,
For anyone else to notice,
But as long as I know that things are going well,
I'm satisfied.

I just hope my voice doesn't go back to my old range,
Just before I'm due for my shot again.

I'm pretty excited about Chinese New Year actually.
(My year leh)
A good chance for me to pig out,
And hopefully gain some much-needed weight.
And I have new shoes for the New Year!

Yeah I've decided to stop caring,
And start frittering my savings away on frivolous things.
Firstly, by going to Limited Edt on Tuesday,
And copping myself the latest pair of SB dunks.

I know I'm addicted to shopping,
But I've never thought of myself as "vain".

In fact,
Someone just called me vain recently.
It wasn't said in a derogatory manner,
Nor was it meant to be insulting,
The person just said it matter-of-factly.

Me, vain?

Serious?

I do not spend half an hour styling my hair everyday.
I don't really care about my hair,
Cos the helmet ruins everything anyway.
I just like buying lots of clothes.
That's not considered vain, right?

Some food for thought to end the day;
A short excerpt from my never-to-be-published thesis:

A society that condones transsexuality,
Can be viewed as both progressive,
And regressive, at the same time.

It is progressive in the sense that it gives allowance,
For people to cross gender boundaries,
And yet it reinforces the idea,
That there can be no more than 2 genders in the world.

Bending gender rules and passing between genders,
Does not erode, but rather,
Preserves gender boundaries in this sense (Lorber 1992).