"Complex numbers? Noooooooo!!!!!"

It's human to feel nostalgic about the past, isn't it?
I mean,
How many times have you heard someone go,
"Damn, I miss the good ol' days."

And I'm no freaking exception.

Now that I'm so bored and sick of my existence,
I keep thinking about how great a time I had,
When I was still in school.

"My two years in Jc?
Those were the two best years of my life!"

Or so I thought.

I had a dream the other day.
I dreamt that I have to go back to school again.
Or rather,
I should say that I had a nightmare.
I was so freaked out,
That I had to solve mathematical problems,
And deal with neverending piles of homework again,
I almost woke up crying.

So obviously I didn't really enjoy myself in school.

And what does that mean?
Since I'm not happy now,
And I wasn't happy as a school-going kid either,
Does that mean that I was never happy at all?

I'm not trying to say that I'm depressed now or anything,
But there's just something wrong somewhere,
(I don't know exactly.)
And I have no other words to describe how I feel,
Except "unhappy".

It's not just because of the fact,
That I haven't found a decent job yet.
I have no idea what kind of job I'm actually searching for.

I just want to be happy, you know?

I used to think that was a very simple wish,
But in fact it's akin to asking for the moon.

How many people in this world,
Actually have jobs that they love?
Do you love your job?

If I have a chance,
I'll rather be Joy,
And Joy can be me.
Then I can be happy everyday.

And the best part?
Joy was born male.

Eh.
I really don't mean that.
Because I'll never stop searching for my elysium.

Speaking of search,
I've been hunting for the perfect belt for the past week,
And needless to say,
I'm still fuming because I haven't found anything remotely nice.

I thought the GSS would make things easier,
But in reality,
The hordes of shoppers just made my temper worse.

Why is it so hard to find a nice belt huh?
Besides the ones that cost half a grand each lah.
I need some recommendations,
So is anyone feeling helpful?
And preferably below 3 bills please.
I'm unemployed, remember?